1.2.16
30.1.16
Getting high...
Love it
The world suddenly got some absurd meaning to it. And I feel that I'm alive.
Me taking action and change some things in my life seems to pay off. Positive feedback.
Just cut down on the craaazy factors.
Added some normality to my life.
But still high....
29.1.16
Rehab.
That's what I must do.
In order to heal.
Professional help.
I think everyone agrees with me here.
What a mess I have become.
Everybody can see that I'm out of control, it's embarrassing. It's really embarrassing.
Sorry for me, I do not know whats happend to me making me this way. Craaazy...
So I'm going to crawl my way back to normal...
Embarrassing...
Awareness
It feels like I did something wrong. Did I? Do somebody feel that I done them wrong? Have i stept on any toes?
I can only change what people make me aware about.
I will do better, be a better person. Make up for my mistakes. Try to make a better world.
Awareness is so important, we can't change things we do not know about. Please let me know what I should shange, what's irritating and what's my wrongings. I chose to try to be a better me.
So I start to day...
28.1.16
A fix
And everything is on track...
I'm not dying anymore.
My heart feels normal
Everything feels like it should.
At last peace.
Soon I will get out of the claws of this drug habit. I will get free. Cus this is a prison. Things go to hell when om sober... I will find the courage to do this, shange the things I can change.